DON'T READ MY BLOG IF...

Ur looking for the secrets to life. Cause I don't have the answers. Hella questions, but no answers. And when I say i do science... if you think.. ohhhhh hot shot huh? Must think you're smart huh? Yeah, no. If I was actuallyyy smart, I would have made some discovery that allowed me retire by now. I would have won the Nobel Prize or something. If I was actuallyyyy smart... I wouldn't be working for someone.

I mean think about the idea of working for someone... that alone sounds awfully dumb. Granted, that is the world we live in and what a majority of us must do to get by.. so its cool its cool. But on a certain level, the idea of committing a third of your life to someone elsesss cause is wild. 8 hours a day.. that is the MAXIMUM ill work for someone. The other hours in the day are mine. And the time I spend catching z's, getting my beauty sleep... are mine. Got off track for a sec. Anywaysss...

Yeah sure, I'd say I'm above average intelligence (just for the sake of being confident)... but I don't think I'm smart and better than people sorta thing; tha fuqqq. Honestly, science research is the most relaxing work I've done that will actually pay me. So yeah. Plus I was trained to do it in college so.. I might as well use my degree. As a matter of FACTS.. I'm blessed to have finally found a lab that accepts my personality really. I know i can be a little much.. a little too hot to handle.. so I'm super thankful actually.

And yeah, I'm not a perfect human by any means. So don't come to this blog thinking.. this guy has THE ANSWERS... shit if I did.. I'd be in the Bahamas gettin fed grapes by some coconut bra'd baddies. If I did, I wouldn't be saying stupid shit like I JUSTTtTTtT said... that will get me in trouble with Ashia. Ya know, the point is.. I have my moments of stupidity.. and my moments of brilliance. My true friends know that.

I like to write, and as my thoughts flow onto the screen, I hope I'll be able to share some good ones of course.. but I may also share some stuff you should just disregard completely. Some stuff you should respond in your head with.. "what the heck is he talking abouttt????"

Now that's a disclaimer!

As far as Musica goes... I'm working on a song now. Basically on my drives to & from work (and during breaks)... i'll listen to the beat and try to think of lyrics. It's gonna be a collaboration with this beat maker who posts stuff to Youtube... OBM Beats (not like that means anything to you).. but hey figured id let u know who I'm working with anyways for this (fingers crossed) banger. Normally they charge 30 or so bucks for beats.. for "promotional purposes only" but if i ever wanted to make "profit" (I guess) I would need "exclusive rights." It honestly feels like a bunch of b.s. to charge thousands of dollars for a beat. Either way, I'll get the promotional rights... and if it ever gets more popular than expected... i'll cross that bridge when i get there, maybe get exclusive rights at that point... idk. I'm just winging it. Either way, Its gonna be a turn up style song. It's either a hit or miss with those. I do have oneee really good one (that hasn't been released), but I'd like another one.

Peace peace.

<3

Not according to plan

The plan wasss to wake up, work out, eat breakfast, get ready for work, drop the dogs off... then go to work. But instead, I woke up late, didn't work out, anddd everything else can go as planned in theory. Yes.. I'm going to work. No, I don't do music full time. I work full time doing scientific research in Carlsbad.. cuz I like to live (food & shelter aint free)... and I do music nights & weekends. Random thought tho, isn't it cool... that even tho I woke up late... I still.. woke up. Hell yeah. Another day to experience life. A one page extension on your story. It may not go as planned... but it may work out. =)

Well shit

Soooo I have a feeling Ashia saw that last blog post. And now i feel bad because i bet it made her insecure. But those chicks at Karinas don't mean nothing to me ya know. Like I spend my time with Ashia, I think about a future with Ashia. Not any of dem. So yah, I feel super bad. I want to empower her, to enconfident (not a word but should be) her. The point is, I wanna make her feel confident!! She's so frickin smart. And I swear the first time I saw her... I was like wholly balls she is BEAUTIFUL. But then I had to get back to work... but man, the whole time I was working, I was thinking about that beautiful girl I saw earlier. Then after work, I was just hoping I would see her again. Man I'm telling ya. There was a different kind of attraction, one where ur literally pulled towards the person by some magnetic force. Ashia was just absolutely indescribably fuckin beautiful that night... its hard to describe. Then somehow we got off work at the same time, probably sometime around 10 o clock at night... and idk what happened, idk how it happened, but i ended up hanging out with her in her car. And just sitting there next to the girl I had been thinking about the whole shift... man i got so nervous for a second. Like, I just couldn't believe I was sitting next to a girl so hot! swear to Jah, it was unreal. My nerves went away somehow... and there was a feeling of comfort. Like she made me not feel afraid. Which I liked. I loved. and I'm so happy to be with her right now. We have our little family with Kiwi and Mango, and we're paying rent n shit. Real adult stuff! I gotta go to sleep now, cause we work out in the mornings before work. It's one of the ways we bond sorta, and i really cherish that time we spend... jumping, running.. sweating... haha so romantic... but it's the shit. If Ashia is reading this.. lub u. If someone else is.. i lub her.

And I know, nobody likes to hear people talk about themselves.. which i sorta just did.. but that was on my chest. So yeah. I'll try to give ya some actual music related shit one day haha. Peace. <3