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To start, I hope you feel loved today.

After watching the movie “Shazam!” last night, I’ve decided to study the seven deadly sins today. (Real quick) If you’ve havent seen the movie, basically theres a bad guy with monster buddies who all represent one of the sins. I found a wonderfully worded (so much so that i couldn’t help but use its wording directly at times) YouTube video on the topic of the 7 deadly sins, and below is my interpretation of the ideas it talked about. I don’t claim to be a preacher even if I get that way unintentionally. But my hope in writing this was to help my personal comprehension of the ideas I ran into.


In online life and in our social life, we sometimes berate others (often unknowingly) when we observe these human behaviors believing what we are doing is for the greater good. However, if we were to just form better understanding of these behaviors, it would be more productive for all of us. At least that’s what I learned from the YouTube video haha

Pride: Sometimes, as humans, we become boastful and we speak of our greatness.. but this is only because we feel invisible. And speaking amazing things about ourselves is our natural reaction to that feeling of invisibility. So telling someone “I see you” is a wonderful thing to say to them. Those that exhibit a need to boast of their how amazing they are just need a little encouragement. So they can grow closer to a genuine feeling of self-worth, and diminish the need to boast of their greatness.

Envy: Sometimes we want what other people have but that’s okay. It’s natural. Rather than condemn someone for expressing these wants, we should understand that this person has not yet realized that it IS ENOUGH TO JUST BE, or maybe just forgot momentarily. Either way, isn't it easy to tell someone to be grateful for what they have?, even though I’m guilty of envious thoughts too. Easier said than done sort of thing. And gratitude while a magically beautiful thing, doesn’t mean envy is equally as ugly. Envy, when carefully analyzed can actually be a healthy source of ambition. It can be a means for us to identify what’s truly missing in our lives. And often times what’s missing is simply love. For example, think of someone who envies another persons material possessions, a pretty common source of envy. Now consider two people in love, they feel accepted, they feel they have the right to exist. There is tenderness and patience that binds them, and they could be happy with nothing more than a park bench. No material wealth or possessions needed. (Well maybe a few, but you get the idea)

Greed (this was a tough one to interpret): Among us are people who excessively hoard material wealth. They desire to grab as much stuff as fast as possible. They may appearrr to be advantaged and privileged, but the urge to acquire more than our fair share, inside, is a manifestation of desperation and fear. It could just be a fear that someone is gonna notice they are unhappy.. and that drives them to grab more and more stuff, almost as a form of distracting others. Like “I’m not unhappy. Look at all this stuff I have, how could I be unhappy?”

Lust: We may sleep around at some point in our lives, not because we are bad people.. but because we are lonely. Sex is the epitome of connection and acceptance. When we do have sex, we should eventually communicate with the other what it is we truly desire from sex.. and for most of us that is an acceptance of our chaotic human selves.

Sloth: We don’t become lazy out of malice. But out of fear that our work will be a source of awful humiliation. We are scared that if we apply ourselves we may not succeed as well as we’d like. Or worse, we will get mocked and humiliated for doing an inadequate job. But this isn’t laziness, rather COMPLETELY understandable worries. Beneath our inaction is the anticipation of catastrophe. We must first overcome the fear of doing something badly.. in order to shift into action.

Wrath: Let’s use road rage as an easily relatable example. At some point, especially in densely populated places.. we experience a moment where we become angry at another driver. But only because in that moment we were scared for our lives. Now we may not be afraid for our life per say in every situation we become angry.. but it’s a pretty frequent trend, that we are scared of something. Take a random, almost silly example of a baseball player getting mad at an umpire in a baseball game. Say a pitch was called a strike by the umpire but the player believed the pitch was a ball. The player may get angry.. but is actually just scared that that pitch which was incorrectly called, could result in an unpleasant event like a strikeout. To go further, maybe the player is afraid of letting his teammates down. Maybe not with this example, but in many situations, it would be good for us to communicate with an “I’m afraid…” statement when we are angry. Or if someone you know is angry, you can say “You must be scared…” Now these may not apply to everything. I mean if you drop the food you just cooked on the ground.. you could just be mad because you dropped your food on the ground lol

Gluttony: We eat and eat and eat to excess, but not to fill a void of food, but to fill a void of love. We truly seek love and acceptance but we are not sure how to find it. We do not need to be told to eat less, eat healthier, or be disciplined in a diet, as many trainers and diet gurus will tell us. What we really need is to be gently guided to different sources of kindness, security, and emotional connection. What we are really hungry for is love.

As a human, I’m not protected from any of these sins and never will be, but I feel better having a deeper understanding of them.


In conclusion, I hope you feel loved today.


Love,

Billy


The video that inspired this post:









You know, I really want this blog to help you see there is more to me. There is so much more to me than just music. And while most people talk about their struggles and stuff, I'm a positive person, so thats just not really my style.


That being said, I'm gonna list some things I want to do before I level up to the next life. No particular order. And honestly, some of em sound cliche..but I haven't done em. I'm busy working all the time.. so even if they sound cliche, and are cliche... fuck it. I may expand on a couple of em too.


1) Go to a professional basketball game, probably the Lakers

I've played street pick up basketball my whole life, never organized... but its such a fun sport. I'd love to see how the pros play.

2) Go to Hawaii

I hear its gorgeous

3) See some national parks

gimme suggestions!

4) Visit my family in the Philippines

Haven't been there since I was 5 years old

5) Visit a friend in Japan

6) I have a few friends in the Midwest too I'd love to visit

7) I might be down to skydive

8) I wanna drive a car like 160mph

I'd need the car and an open track or road but man, like a young Ricky Bobby once said... I WANNA GO FAST!

9) Fly an airplane

I just need a pilot friend to let me hop in the cockpit for a little, fk a license

10) I'll do some music ones... Do a Tour

I mean, traveling the country.. the world.. AND get to perform my music... well shit thats a dream come true.

12) Perform at Madison Square Garden

I feel like once I do that... oh I'm the shit shit

13) Start a business

I think it would be cool... be making money... employing people putting money in their pocket and stuff.. sounds like fun. Like that WE ALL GETTIN PAID sorta feeling.

14) Now back to other ones.. Start a family

Having kids... all running around like wild animals... then I raise my voice and they stop.. hahah.. sounds like fun to me.

15) Play in the Major Leagues (Baseball)

Hey! It's MY LIST OKAY?! I would still be so down to be a big leaguer. Ever since I was 5 years old, words can't even describe how cool it would be to play in the MLB.

16) Be in an action movie

Romance... naw... Comedy... nawww. I WANNA BE AN ACTION HERO! just thinking about the end product.. I'm all kicking everyones ass... BOOM... BANG... POW... zoom in on my head all badass lookin and I didn't even break a sweat. hahaha. Hell yeah

17) Inspire people.. or even just someone

To think of how cool it would be to inspire someone. You could be the spark that sets them off on their course to change the world. The spark that makes them fearlessly chase (and eventually catch) their dream. The spark that makes them wanna keep fighting even when things aint easy... that's what I'm talking about. No disrespect to Gandhi... but Be the change? Naww


BE THE SPARK.


Peace & Love,

Billy



Getting the business side of Lil Casino is a littleee tricky to establish. There's so many things that go into it and its just complicated. For my sake, and for anyone else in music, I'm gonna try to simplify it as much as possible.


Now as someone who needs to pay rent, I've gotta find a way to fund my music with whatever extra money I have. And that's not much. So truly, the only way to do anything dope af is to have somme sort of sponsorship or investor. But investors want to get their money back and some! So figuring out how to profit is the goal.


The three most clear ways to profit are via streaming, merchandise, and shows. There's tons of other ways but these are the most basic. Streams are tough tho, because to make anythingggg, you really have to be superstar status. So that brings us to merchandise and shows. Now that I could do. Other things like sync licenses where your song gets in movies and video games would also be pretty awesome and profitable. Then eventually doing features. But I'm getting ahead of myself.


The first first step would be to establish myself as a business, either a DBA or LLC. A "doing business as" (DBA) is good, cheap, but someone can sue me and come for my car, house, personal assets. But with an LLC, I could protect my personal stuff. Now this seems like the best idea, especially in music where getting sued seems almost inevitable. But only problem is it is $800 a year!!! HOLY BALLS. Now I don't wanna get into the nitty gritty, but to sum it all up... music is expensiveeeee. Because that's just that part of it. There's also fees associated with music videos, outreach, and just plain making the music. This is what makes it so tough to keep going sometimes. Money. That's what its always about am I right? But I just can't look back on my life and wonder what if I did go all out? So I'm going for it. But it's gonna be tricky.

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